I rarely feel smug instead I feel insecure. When I should be happy with what I have I worry it will dissapear.
I have a raging week long headache a hole in my purse a sense s discontentment and a fear of zombies

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I have always had a nice bedroom. It didn't have to be filled with nice furniture - I mean jeez my bedroom in NYC was empty- but I've always made it my own little place to hide.
I don't know what it is about my current bedroom but it's never felt quite....right. Shifty carpet that soaks dog toddle and dirt up and no matter how much I clean never ( Read more... )

I got paid my shifty bonus on Friday and proceeded to spend it on an average nights drinking with work folk. I do t know if it was because we were at a rubbish bar buy I reallly wasn't feeling it. The highlight for me was when I hit amazi g payable for dinner
I'm geting to the stage at work where I am starting to feel more than q little jaded and ( Read more... )

You know your gettingbolder and more jaded when as soon as you feel happy you worry something shit is going to happen to take it away from you.

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It's hard to believe that two weeks ago tonight is when my life fell apart and here I am now preparing a valentines dinner. I feel like my heads been through a spin cycle so mo wonder I've been tired so much. Ergh I'm going to miss hom when I'm away bit that's what phones are for and people spend more time apart all the time...3 weeks will fly by.

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I can't remember when I last updated. Without going into too much detail buck Iis back after realising his mistake.
That night ivwoke up with s start and thought it had been a dream but unlike avweek before when it made me dissolve into tears I realised he was next to me. It was perfect.

There us a me and a him and an us. I live my bed by myself and ( Read more... )

I was feeling pretty low yesterday as it was when my dog started having a seizure like fit on the floor. I was all alone in the house and scremed and scremed in hysteria. She's ok now but I'm so scared shel have another and it's worse.

I was distracted and irritable and found no enjoment in anything but smoking. Not even films and have tv shows. ( Read more... )

Everyone keeps telling me I should start dating older guys but
A: I can't even comprehend being with anyone else
B: I feel too much pressure dating someone older like I have to be grown up and serious

That's what worked so well with nick it was just fun and loving with no grown up pressure

But as dennis said " here is a man on the cusp of manhood who ( Read more... )

Bad nights sleep my brains in overdrive and i've got a migraine

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Ergh I'm on steves car cos I don't wanna spend topnight home alone so I'm going to my mums. This tome last week we were sharing pizzas and watching tv in his bed

I can't spend all night imagining him with someone else

Why can't he just turn up at my door

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